Another sign

Yet another sign it is time to move on... I no longer have any cache or relevant knowledge of the information output of my old area. I'm essentially a useless addition not required by any team.

I know part of this is post-exertion depression and moodiness, hormones etc, but I'm tired of feeling like I'm not contributing.

I want out.

Random thoughts and navel gazing

Great sunny day, but feeling quite blue.
Vaggy sick, will need medication for the rest of her life, and god only knows how much $$$ for vet bills. Already at $600+
Janine's back is out and she is on Day 2. Trying her best, but it is a bit tense.
Girls slept well, were great this morning. Only had to speak to Jordan once.
Both getting sick, guess that is what allowed them to sleep to 0615 this morning.

Couldn't bring myself to run this morning. I hurt, am tired and have little or no hope of things changing.

We are trying to get a line of credit just to get by for the next month or 2 but it will ultimately bite us in the ass as yet another monthly bill.I'm so depressed that yet again we are in so much debt that we can't even pay the monthly minimums. WTF are we doing so wrong that we can't keep up.
How is it that when we get here, we can't manage to reduce our spending?
AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!